Warning: this episode was originally going to be around six-eight minutes… ha ha.
That’s what happens when you don’t make cuts, and keep thinks authentic. I like it when thoughts flow.
If it’s still on your mind, it’s worth a shot.
At the end of 2021, I set goals I thought I’d hit by 2023. I didn’t.
Fear and ego consumed me. And while I could have made certain things happen, it wasn’t just that I wasn’t ready — I was completely out of alignment.
I found myself living a life I had once dreamed of… but it still didn’t feel like enough.
After just a few months in Arizona, I was burnt out, intimidated, more insecure than ever. I decided not to launch the podcast, even though it was one of the main reasons I moved out West.
I was terrified to post on social media out of fear of being called “an influencer,” even though I had over 50K followers on TikTok at the time.
Working a 9 to 5 felt heavy on my mental health. I was in a long-distance relationship.
Everything just felt… ugh. I wanted more, even though so much of what I had was everything I thought I wanted.
SO here I am… in 2025, just now getting settled in NYC. Maybe things COULD have happened the way I envisioned them too in Arizona, but they didn’t. I’m determined to make some of my dreams that have remained on my mind come to life here, even if it doesn’t necessarily happen in the way I originally planned.
I’m learning to hold both truths: appreciating what I have while still working toward what I want.
It’s not too late.
Jewels
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